Strangers -> Acquaintances -> Friends -> Good friends -> Best friends -> Lovers -> Enemies -> Strangers who know each other very well. RELATIONSHIPS.

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So someone finally caught me online...

Semestral break started around the last week of October, and while I have all the time in the world to write blog entries and chat with friends, I chose to leave the cyber world for a while. First, because I really have this tendency to hide from the social networking world during vacations, probably because I'm busy watching DVDs or playing The Sims 3 or I maybe just really DON'T wanna hear how this girl spent her semestral break in the beach while I sit in our warm living room, folding clothes, or how this guy went to watch this awesome concert while I watch The Simpsons season 18; second, because I'm avoiding people. But it's not because I want to. It's because... well, I just don't know what to say. I know some of my friends have been wanting to ask me this one question, but I just really don't know how to answer them. Or maybe I know how, I'm just too afraid face the answer...

Anyway, my friend and I started catching up. And YES,  we talked about, guess what... SCHOOL. Our conversation went like this:


That has got to be one of the awesomest five seconds of my life. Oh, the feeling of passing a tough exam. *Glory moment*

I had no idea I passed the exam. The results were released today, but I wasn't aware of it, and I only found out I passed because of my friend. And I know passing the Removal exam can only get you a grade of 3, but MAN! That's Oral Surgery. That's Oral freaking Surgery! We had to get a grade of 75% to pass, and that's pretty high for OS. Also, that's 3 units off of my load next semester, and 3 thousand pesos off of my parent's expenses! Just one more exam result to see. God is really good. Thank You so much! ♥  

Dear God,

I know I've been ranting to you for weeks months now, and I just wanna say THANK YOU. Thank You, for helping me get through this week. No, this entire semester. I know I still didn't do all too well, seeing that I had to take a number of removal examinations, but still. I was able to survive. And despite all the hardships, I know that I still want to stay in this course, in this school. So, thank You so much for always being there for me. Thank You.

Love,
Charm

Dear God,

As we both know, I have this high tendency to hyper-panic when faced with a very stressful situation. Yes, I'm on hyper-panic right now, so I had to stop whatever it was I'm doing and breathe. And maybe write You a letter.

Judging by the number of times I have called onto You, I know you know I've been facing deep troubles for months now. But I really, really, reaaally need your help big time this week. I have five final examinations, two of which I have to do really well on; a practical examination, which is sort of do-or-die - I have one more shot left and failure is not an option; two lab completions, one I just need a wax pattern and a tempo {if I pass the practicals, that is}; the other requires me to do 4 composite fillings, an onlay, and a complex amalgam resto in one day. Scratch that, TWO HOURS. Cause we have an exam at 1pm and won't be able to attend lab until we finish. Uhm. I did one class two last Tuesday. Worked on it for four hours, didn't even get approved (our professors were extra grumpy that day)...

I know You're really busy fixing wars, solving disputes, and saving the world to be paying attention to one girl who's in conflict with school, but I do believe in what Liz Gilbert said that "the health of the planet is affected by the health of every individual on it"; and I know You can see how all these stress and depression aren't doing us any good. People became greedy and stopped caring about others. They're also get easily mad and extra grumpy and hating...

If You can help me and all my peers, who are also in distress right now, to get through this storm, then You'll be giving eight, or twenty, or even fifty people a chance to become healthy and free from suffering (which we call "removals". Please don't laugh, I'm serious.), so there will be a little bit less suffering, depression and animosity in a world that is already too contaminated by it.

Please help us.

Love,
Charm

PS. Thank You very much for all the blessings you have given me, for my wonderful family, and for all the people who helped me survive the toughest of times.

Dear God,

It’s me, Charm. A gigantic green monster ate my relationship. All this time, I have only been in love with the same guy, as he has been with me. I know I am not perfect - I have faults, I have flaws - but I really try to figure things out.  We both do. But at some point, he stopped trying. Later on, I stopped trying too. I had to, for I have other storms to face.Ones that cannot be delayed. I was hoping he’d wait for my other storms to clear up.  But that wasn't how it went. We just both ended up hurt. Too much pain, that we just ended up hurting each other more, may it be on purpose or not.

He was hurt, maybe because he thought he was not valued, maybe out of jealousy, maybe out of misunderstanding, or some other reason that I would have found and cleared if only he agreed to talk about it sooner. But I never wanted to hurt him on purpose.

I was hurt, for he stopped trying because there is doubt in his heart, one instilled by the green monster that has taken over his head. I was hurt, because he left me when I needed him the most. I was hurt, because a year ago, he broke my heart and now he's done it again. But what hurts most is he's done by choice...I never thought things are just gonna end up like this for us. I thought we were way more than just this. We were supposed to be there for each other, but nstead, we turned into each other’s monster.

Dear God, I don’t know what to do or what to think. I don’t know what I want, but I do know what I don’t want. I don’t want us to hate each other. Please help me. Help us.

Love,
Me

When life takes a big shit on your face...

Everything's wrong.
Nothing's going as planned.
All efforts wasted,
Everything just seems to be falling apart.
EVERYTHING.
And the worst part is you are left on your own.

And oh, I have never felt so alone in my entire life. 

 So what's up?

Been busy with school and being happy lately that I haven't been able to post anything for what seems like ages. LOL. It's uhh July 12, 2010, Tuesday. We just had 8 HOURS of laboratory, I got my monthly visitor,  and right now I'm reading some boring handouts, I'm exhausted, I'm hormonal, but I'm waiting for something something... oh wait, what was I waiting for again? Something... which reminds me that waiting STILL isn't my thing and it NEVER will be. Where was I again? Oh yeah, TUESDAYS ARE KILLING ME.

Anyway,
HARRY POTTER AND THE DEATHLY HALLOWS PART 2
this Fridaaaayyyy! Still trying to avoid watching trailers or accessing Tumblr. I know there's just too much HP stuff there. And while I am absolutely in love with the Potter series, I just really can't handle all the craze. I dunno, it makes me too excited, I just wanna Apparate to the theaters and Avada Kedavra the arse out of those who'll try to get on my way. Yes, it's that dangerous. And yes, I'm that weird. So no, don't get me too hyped about Potter, or the above mentioned just might happen. ACCIO RADCLIFFE!